Wednesday, November 28, 2007
sick + exhaustion really saps my brain juices dry!
then my princess also sick sobs! hmph the sore throat bug!!!
anyways... so happy! i wonder when i would spam chocolates with princess again =P
spoke at : 8:53 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
Burnt
exhaustion has being eating into me
bit by bit, fatigue creeps in like the night
nothing keeps me more awake than you
thinking of you, all my thoughts on you
the burning pain and anguish of love
all suffer able just for those moments
those moments we longed for ages
as the times together happily seeps away
sad as we are, evil our past, I'll do it all
to just let it stay, better as time passes
-cj
spoke at : 10:24 PM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Thinking
It is all like an addiction, more powerful
more inducing than any drug man has made
it corrupts all thoughts, erases all concentration
all I could ever think of was her alone
I gave her all my heart, all thoughts... everything
just to see her smile, just to see her contented
I am greedy, I always want more from her
but I am so ready to give that so much more
SEE! what love has done to me, but I know
that I am truly happy inside because you cared
-cj
spoke at : 6:23 PM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
You
Love beautifies the soul, just as
happiness rejuvenates the heart
Never saw her with such beauty
and such aura of rebirth
Her Love, My courage
when both hearts entwine as one
such radiance makes the stars turn
and make angels cry with joy
-cj
spoke at : 9:13 PM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
彩虹 - 周杰伦哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我为什么天这么安静 所有的云都跑到我这里有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 你的声音这么近我却抱不到没有地球 太阳还是会绕 没有理由 我也能自己走你要离开我知道很简单 你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱 当作我最后才明白有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 你的声音这么近我却抱不到没有地球 太阳还是会绕 没有理由 我也能自己走你要离开我知道很简单 你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱 当作我最后才明白看不见你的笑 要我怎么睡的着 你的声音这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕 没有理由我也能自己走掉释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药你要离开我知道很简单 你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
spoke at : 9:11 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007
Darling!
Not let our past affect our future
we came together due to our past
all we should care is the present
for it affects our future together
I'll give it all and everything for you
of course, I am selfish and want that too
spending the rest of our lives together
would be like eternal bliss for me
May our shared dreams come to reality
let nothing stand in our way, undeniably
-cj
spoke at : 9:40 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007
the CD!
album cover!
weee! my princess bought me this album... one i have being searching for a long time of this edition with Destroyed inside =/
thanks princess! anyways these days keep thinking how to ask princess that burning question n my head, i guess i finally know wut to say now XD
spoke at : 8:23 PM
Friday, November 16, 2007
Unbreakable
Beneath this cruel, rotting flesh
further than these seared eye sockets
lies a need, extremely dire yet delicate
cries of aid or help became to silence
She came just like an ordinary human
no one knew what was inside of her
tender and beautiful like a princess
forgiveness and strength of an angel
It was never a match made in heaven
but I'll make you feel heaven... eternally
-cj
spoke at : 4:57 PM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
The Shattering
All I see in my dreams are only you
the beautiful yet flawed princess
even the undeath mourn for such pain
for your heart is locked in an icy prison
My flesh can kill your loneliness and pain
bones and sinew defend you physically
Heart and love shatter your walls of uncertainty
Thou shall never die in my heart, kept by her
I require that sword to my complete knighthood,
a proud undead knight, to shatter that prison I MUST
-cj
spoke at : 12:36 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
My Blade
I lived once a human, now as an undead
fought alive as a warrior, again as knight
Undead I maybe, I have a beating heart
cruel as always, I still seek to serve
This rotting brain of mine, simplistic!
thinks of no one but of that i knew alive
of that whom raised my dead body
as her knight, proudly i stood and salute
I have no need for a sword to combat
Flesh, Bone, Sinew, Craze are all I need
but whatever the princess presents
I gladly accept, I truly want a weapon
My undying heart, kept alive and beating
by my warrior-mate, by my beloved princess
I wish it will never die, may my mate fall
For I have a princess to care..to protect
-cj
spoke at : 9:32 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The UnDeath Knight
I come to you, not as your desire
never as that knight in shining armour
neither as the one you have in your eyes
nor the one you saw in your dreams
I come to you, for you revived this
dead, cruel soul of an un-beating heart
you spared this world of a crazed menace
by reliving my heart and soul by acceptance
I come to you, as your undead knight
none can describe the pride instilled into me
when you championed me as your very knight
undeath or not i strive to crush your woes
I come to you, to serve the princess
unwavering faith, un-shatterable courage
I require no sword but my flesh, blood, bone
undaunted by all in my path, deranged in my oath
I come to you, silently muttering my oath
driven by my again living heart and soul
will always be there at your command
I'll carry it out, for the undeath lives by his vow
You may not be princess to others, but they live
I am undead.. With you, fear despair grief i do not know
Do not leave me, for a knight is incompetent without his lady
I'll swear to be by your side so long you keep this
heart and soul of mine alive, promises never worked for undead
I've come to you... to serve, to protect, to annihilate for you
-cj
months have passed with me being dead all over, nothing feels better than being able to feel alive again, none can describe, words can never do that too, but the care and love for the undead knight shows certainly will.....
The Undead Knight's Oath
Be loyal of hand and of mouth,
Seeking to serve only that one princess
Be humble and courteous
Never allow her to suffer by thy default,
Love and care for her with thy life
Always life thy hand to protect
If thou must draw thy life to defend her,
Do so unto thy own death.
I solemnly swear
May my heart and soul burn
If any part thereof oath... broken
spoke at : 1:30 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
yes! i am championed as her undead knight! XD
unwavering
undying
undaunted
deranged!
so wut should i do? protect her with my un-death life (:
of course! theres a song to delicate to her! (:
Somewhere Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign Instead there is only silence,Can't you hear my screams...?
Never stop hoping,
Need to know where you are
But one thing 's for sure, You're always in my heart.I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened, The Truth will free my soul. Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home I want to embrace you and never let you go... Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul...Living in
agony 'cause I just do not know
Where you are
I'll find you somewhere I'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happened,
The truth will free my soul.
Wherever you are, I won't stop searching. Whatever it takes, I need to know. I'll find you somewhere I'll keep on trying until my dying day I just need to know whatever has happened, The truth will free my soul. - Within Temptation
If I ever do find you, I'll make sure you will never feel hurt and you will be my one and only princess for you are the only one in the world whom i will ever truly love. No more other than you, just you. It is not a promise, it's me, i am like that.
spoke at : 3:24 PM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
it has being 1 month(31 days) since i started to make that princess mine >_< far longer than the time i took to go for vanny which was 21 days =/ ....and guess wut? i will definitely take a much longer time!
but i believe that the harder to attain what u desire, the more u will treasure it... since i was able to love vanny soo much, maybe if i ever get that princess, i might love her more? X)
the biggest problem is am i able to take the death of a loved one that i love so dearly? but as i spend more time with the princess, the more sure i am that i would love her more than ever rather than forget her and let this love for her die off. =) and yea i cannot take any love-related hurt anymore, it is u or that is it for me =/
and yes! lettme TPL u okies! (: u know what i mean! X)
spoke at : 12:00 AM
Thursday, November 8, 2007
u know theres 1 thing better than knowing your loved one is happy and contented
and that is both are contented and happy (:
it just feels so damn good
spoke at : 2:41 AM
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
i found a song that really fits my situation with vanny =/
Memories
Memories, memories, memories
In this world you triedNot leaving me alone behindThere's no other way
I'll pray to the gods let him stay
The memories ease the pain inside,Now I know why
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here. All of my memories keep you near, Your silent whispers, silent tears Made me promise I'd try To find my way back in this life. I hope there is a way To give me a sign you're okay.Reminds me again it's worth it all
So I can go home.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here. All of my memories keep you near, Your silent whispers, silent tears.Together in all these memories
I see your smile. All the memories I hold dear.Darling, you know I'll love you
till the end of time.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here. All of my memories keep you near, Your silent whispers, silent tears.All of my memories...
- Within Temptation
bolded simply means those words hold alot of meaning to me T-T , i know u are reading this vanny, we take this as one of the songs to listen when we are together for the last few moments, okay?
and to my princess, do not feel useless or bad or anything okay? i seriously am not able to love again, and u will be the last girl i will ever truly love, and i will willing to wait, willing to take all the cold feelings u give me back..... i really love you
spoke at : 1:29 AM
serious a quote from ming
'no matter wat as long as anithing to do wif other tat happen to her is all our sad problem'
damn true
sad but true
=/
nothing to say
spoke at : 11:33 PM
they say transparency between a couple will bring about a lasting relationship.... we see how true they are lmao
ming said a girl who had a bad past will always remember the past no matter what.. quite true... thinking if i can take up with it, guess since i already planned this to be the last just take it! =/
still, i cant imagine how can i cope with the death of a loved one, maybe with her by my side, she could lessen my pain? seriously i am quite confused O.o
it is always my fault anyways
spoke at : 1:16 AM
i didnt know i could love again......
well least it makes her passing less painful ):
at least i got someone to love! (:
it really seems that i MUST have dark emotions then i can kek a poem lmao
spoke at : 1:01 AM
CJ 
